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  I often look at myself, and can't meet the eyes because of the physical scars I’ve given myself, the universe has given me. Sometimes unable to process how did I get here, when did I get here, and longing for the answer when will I get out of this? I feel like my life only made sense when I was with you, every moment, each comment, every conversation we had was worth living a thousand times more than living the after version. But who am I to blame other than myself right? Because that’s all I can do, to give myself an assurance that maybe I’ve become a monster.I blame the universe for putting me in such position from where I can not whisper your name everytime I need someone to hold onto, every battle, every pain, each tear has to be fought alone like a soldier, and here I was thinking to be a prince, how foolish of me. I believe this battle has made me a monster now, I am not a prince I was hoping I’ll become one day, but a monster who has to act tough in each situation, take ev...

                                     I’m a MONSTER You were the chaos, I were the peace but somehow I am battling demons in cease I know you can teach me every move, every step, you can gurantee but you choose to leave my sinking ship and I choose to believe because your courage slip my friends call me light witted as what you say, they admitted perhaps I don’t know why it is hard for me to see the “truth” ,  as they perceive maybe because I was always meant to be the one that always see through humanity I know people as they are, even when they try so hard to be the one that they are not I have been the one that helps people even if I try, I can not become a demon because I might not talk too much, As I listen from the heart that touch you were right about the fun part, can’t expect from the one with a heavy past, oh, forgot about the burden you said you were right ...

I’ll love you endlessly, Until time bleeds breathlessly, The star fades to ember, The ocean dries to dust, Till my breath erases your name, Yet, in the silence of universe, You hear my heart beat for you.                                                                 - Synchroblogs