Synchro

The second last blog  “This is my last blog” I always feel like writing this, before starting to write my next blog. But I always end up with second last, is it my position in your life or what? Well, jokes apart I guess it will forever be the second last for me, I’m stuck in this loop, don’t know how long I can be there, but as long as I can be in it, I’ll stay. Too much audacity ain’t it?  "Tact in audacity is knowing how far you can go without going too far."  said by Jean Cocteau, interesting right, near but not touching the boundary, in simple words if I may explain. So, what is the definition or limitation of “near” ? I guess in my words I can say that not hurting the person or intervening in their life, that’s my limit, that’s my near. All I know that your boundary is my art and it could whisper through your thick walls, audacity would be me breaking through your walls. However, at the end of the day, the stage yours, plot yours, story yours however you want to exp...

  One-sided love Have you ever thought about the meaning of one-sided love, or how it feels to be in one? I'm pretty sure everyone once in their life time been in such heart wrenching situation name one-sided love. It is a feeling of life time that happens without your knowing however, never stops and even if in the rarest case it ever stops, the mark leaves you broke enough to never be able to fall in love again.  Being in this situation, where you see the other person hanging out with someone else and you hope for that one moment where they give you chance to prove yourself in their eye. Because in your mind they deserve the world, someone so precious that deserves the nurture and love that only you can give. Nevertheless to say when it grows for longer than the period you expected years after years, it becomes an undeniable urge to just see the person a second. It is something that makes you forget about your past, the highs and lows where you might have missed your chance ...

THOSE EYES It felt like the 4th of July, maybe because it was the month of July, but that's not what I mean, I mean that specific day felt like a 4th of July with all the fireworks, sparkles in the eye, like the sky is full of parole and pink shades. It was crazy how a mundane morning of July could feel like a breezy evening of 4th of July. But, I felt it, now what changed that day? I would say my whole life. Tara, the girl who had a crush on me, merely just a girl with a curious  nature and pretty eyes. I'll never in a million years would understand how in this universe she landed her eyes on me, out of all the guys. In school, I was just a guy who was trying to survive throughout each class, dealing with my own insecurities and family issues. In the midst of all that, her presence every day in class was like satisfaction to my eyes, every day. I just never allowed myself to be near her, as I didn't want to burden her with my troubles, but meanwhile I wanted to be with her...

  It's been 15 days, I see her everyday swimming on my surface. It seems like she is almost showing off her mesmerising white feathers, but I like it. I like how she pretends that I don't exist, or how she swims all over me but never cherishes it. It means I have a chance to win her attention in my way.   I still remember the 1st day when she flew over me, and sat on the banks of me. She roamed around the banks the whole day, I couldn't stop myself, and went up to her for a formal introduction. Her name is Moon, ahh.. so accurate for her, just like her radiant energy. That was the day I felt bad for not having a name, besides you know.. lake. Yes, lame but I'm lake. On that day I felt like I realised my real purpose on earth, to have  Moon swim on me, everyday, every night, forever. Since the 1st day, we haven't spoken to each other that much. I must be curious therefore thinking a little too much, but she seems upset and lost most of the time. I should approach her...